T minus 7 and Bible Study Recap

Where has the time gone? I remember waiting so long to find out what I was having and now it's almost over! Just 7 short weeks to go. Things are really starting to come together. Her car seat I picked out arrived this week and it really just hit home that very very soon I will be carting her around everywhere (looking very stylish I might add). I am so very thankful that Dustin and Katherine saved my crib crisis! We found that part of my crib broke somehow and, being that it's so old, the company would not give us a replacement part. In the end, it works out even better because, being the matching fanatic I am, her crib will now match the changing table that Stephanie and Jason are letting me use! I don't know what I would do without such great family to be there for me and help me! Everyone has shared so much with me, I would be completely lost without them.

I have finally picked a name! When I think about talking to her and spending time with her, nothing comes close. In just 7 weeks everyone will be meeting the beautiful Ava Renee! I get more and more anxious everyday! The closer it gets, the more impatient I get. I want to hold her in my arms and kiss every part of her quite athletic body! She is kicking like crazy and I am amazed every time.

This week was the last week for the Beth Moore study Believing God. I really enjoyed this study and it has really motivated me to read my Bible more and has encouraged me to stay faithful. I find myself in constant prayer wherever I go. In the last night, my small group leader asked us to write down a quote or a bible verse that really stuck out throughout the study. It's so hard to just chose one but when she passed out the note cards, there was one that was really sticking out in my mind. In the closing video Beth Moore made the comment, "God isn't looking for perfection, He is looking for FAITH!" That really hit home for me. Every time I make a mistake or a poor decision, I am so inclined to just throw in the towel. I feel like I can't ever get it together so I might as well give up. But God doesn't want perfection. He knows I will have bad days. He knows I will not always make the wise decision. Yet, He loves me anyway because He remembers that He made me from dust. I don't need to be perfect, but I do need to be repentant and ask for forgiveness. I do need to learn from my mistakes. I learn more and more each day, it's amazing to feel such a transformation going on inside and to know that it's only the beginning and my relationship with God is only going to grow.

I appreciate all of the prayers I know have been prayed over me and my choices. I ask for prayer for little Ava and I and for the many decisions ahead that will be made for her well-being. Things look like they will not be easy in the near future and I'm praying whatever happens will be for her and not for any selfish reasons by her father or I.

I'm excited to say I am getting a new camera soon so I will finally be able to actually show you, and not just tell you, what's going on! I can't wait to take lots of pictures! :)